Lead Me On

That's the title to one of my many favourite songs by Amy Grant. I've been listening to her since I was a teenager and she just gets better and better.


I feel I'm being led to do something at the moment. I'm really not sure what, or if it is connected to my worship leading. I feel a bit in limbo as I'm not sure what happens next. I'm thinking to myself that instead of blogging about it I should be reading my bible and praying about it. Pretty good advice, perhaps I should listen to myself!


We had a very powerful prayer time before I led worship on Sunday. One friend gave me a hug afterward and said "it's going to happen through you". I didn't really take that on board at the time, I was thinking ahead to the service and worrying about my mascara running. But now I would like to know what is going to happen through me? I would love to think that it's my husband returning to the Lord and to church, but I often get trapped into thinking about what I want, and not what the Lord wants from me. Another friend (how blessed am I to have more than one amazing friend such as this?) gave me a card yesterday, which encouraged me to stop and listen to the Lord. I really do have the feeling that something is afoot. It's exciting, unnerving and a little frustrating. And my overwhelming thought is that why would anything happen through me? I am so undeserving, unqualified, nowhere near good enough to do the Lord's work, and yet so honoured and in awe.

I would appreciate your prayers as I wait on the Lord and find out what he has in store for me.

Just for your interest here is a photo of me in action, it was taken a couple of weeks ago and I wasn't really using the microphone because my voice was very unreliable at the time and I didn't want that amplified! This is at the front of our church, the band is in the corner behind me on my left. I knelt on those steps 18 years ago to take my first communion as a married woman during my wedding service.