I want to run away.

I'm serious! I really do want to run away.

Life is just bugging me at the moment. And rather than deal with it, I'd just like to run away.

There is nothing specific that I can really put my finger on. I think I'm just tired and feeling run down and unappreciated.

Work is getting busier and busier, with new responsibilities and tasks added here and there. Nothing major, but it builds up.

Nothing drastic has happened at home. The kids are relatively happy (as happy as teenagers get I imagine), Kym isn't stressing any more than usual about the rain, the crops, the weeds, the drought.

I think I've just reached a point where I either need to ask for help or fall into a heap. I feel as though I spend my life meeting other people's needs and demands. It feels like there is no one taking care of me, and I don't have time to take care of me because I'm spending all my time taking care of them.

Sigh.

I don't have any answers. I'm really really bad at telling people how I feel. Really bad. I don't like to admit to any kind of weakness. People comment to me all the time that they don't know how I do it. Well I don't know either. And I don't know how much longer I can go before the wheels fall off.

Like I said. I just want to run away.

Another day at the Field Days

Hi everyone.



I'm still walking (barely) after another day on my feet!



I took a couple of photo's today to share, so here they are...

Below is about half the tractors we have on display at our site. If you imagine another 20 or so sites like this displaying machinery, plus another 200 or so displaying everything from homewares, food, fencing, clothing to hats and socks then you have our field day. I was going to take a photo of the whole thing but you really need an aerial shot to do it justice. By the way, note the beautiful blue winter sky and lovely green pasture in the paddock in the background? We are having the best August in FIVE years! Praise the Lord! Please keep praying for an end to this drought, and for spring rains to finish our crops!

And here we have Stephanie and her cousin Renee acting the goat. Something they do exceptionally well. Their aim for today was to sit inside every tractor at the field day... I think they lost interest before they achieved that!

Tomorrow is the last day when everyone will pack up and go home until two years time when we will do it all again.

It's a huge amount of work for the local community, but it injects a lot of income into our local sporting clubs, churches and schools and the hard work is worth the effort.

I have to say at this stage I'm really looking forward to Saturday when it will all be over!

Poor old knees!

Over the past two days I have spent a lot of time climbing in and out of tractors. Really big tractors. I actually have trouble reaching the first step to climb up into them.

Yesterday was spent preparing for our bi annual Eyre Peninsula Field Day. The field day runs for three days and it's huge. I work for a Case IH dealer so we have a large display of tractors, combines, front end loaders etc. It was my job to print off specification sheets for each piece of machinery and stick them in the cab so that when a farmer came along to have a look all the information was there in front of them.

Today was the first day of the field day, and I spent most of the day on my feet, which is something my poor netball battered old knee's just aren't used to. I handed out brochures and giveaways to the kids and had a pretty enjoyable day. Beats sitting in the office, and it was lovely to get out and about and talk to people from all over the state.

Tomorrow is more of the same but I'm going to try to remember my camera so that I can take some photo's to share. Tomorrow I also hope to have a bit of time to go have a look around at the other display's. There are many shopping opportunities!

So now I'm taking my tired and weary legs off to bed, to rest up for another day!

All those who have jobs that keep them on their feet all day...I salute you!

I don't want to work anymore

Well, I don't mind working but I don't want to GO to work anymore. I just wanna stay home. I've been researching internet businesses on the net but it all looks really scary and most of them have that "too good to be true" ring about them. I don't want to make a ridiculous amount of money, I just want to be able to supplement our farming income (which takes quite a bit of supplementing at the moment!). We have financial commitments that make it difficult (although not impossible) for me to stop work and I have to admit we are quite comfortable financially at the moment and I am loathe to jeopardise that. I'm also the kind of person who needs to be doing something to feel worthwhile, and preferrably getting paid for it!

You know what I'd really love. An op shop/coffee shop/christian bookshop. We have one of those in our town but it is not very well run and I can see sooooo much potential just not being realised. I love op shops but ours is so expensive its embarrasing, and there is heaps of junk which no one is going to buy, it needs a serious clean out. I don't think our town is big enough for me to start up in competition but I just love the idea of being able to come in browse knick knacks, books, maybe some craft or home made goodies and have a cuppa. Bliss.